Crucial Catch & Thanksgiving

Man. It is so nice to be chatting with all of you again. I'm another year older (shout out to all my Scorpio babies), and as they say "with age, comes wisdom." 

I believe I finally understand what this phrase is really saying. With age, comes more exposure to really hard life experiences. The saying does not explain that wisdom is actually birthed from difficult and deeply emotional curveballs that life throws your way. As I enter my 27th year, there will be a few lessons that I take with me from the 26th year. 

Nothing is an absolute. Health. Mental Health. It is completely normal (and expected) to hurt when your loved one hurts, and sometimes the only thing we can control is how we show up. When words fail, a 60 second hug and a listening ear can be the best remedy. 

Over the course of the last month we as a family have experienced some of life's lowest lows and some really wonderful highs. Admittedly, the whiplash can be exhausting. 

The month of November started with the news that my mom will be continuing chemotherapy until "her body can no longer take it." What this means exactly, is vague and incredibly frustrating news to digest. 

HOWEVER. 

The treatment is working (praise the Lord). After the results of her PET scan last week; the numbers of cancerous cells in her body have reduced by half. 

Chemo is doing its job. My mom's body is actively fighting, and everyone has a little bit more giddy in their up. LET'S GO. 

The leaves are beginning to fall, and yet somehow the sun is still shinning. The day's are shorter and the nights are colder. Yet we continue to progress into the holiday season. 

Holidays can be the catalyst for so many hard and complex feelings to arise in one another. They can also serve as a vessel for intentional gatherings, delicious food, and great football. It is important to acknowledge every feeling that may arise. 

With more "wisdom", comes the understanding that holiday traditions may begin to shift and take a different form than what our inner child longs for. As the magic of Santa fades, to the footsteps from running around with our cousins without a care in the world seem to soften, and somehow we go from getting second desserts, to maybe just one cookie, holidays continue to arrive year after year. Whether we are ready or not. 

This year, we choose to be ready, as Thanksgiving is upon us. 

I would like to name a few things I can confidently say our family is thankful for. You all. This community of loving friends and family who have showed unwavering support over these past few months. Modern medicine and the minds that have devoted their lives to furthering these advancements. Football season. Our jobs and the organizations that provide the ability to have holidays off (as we know this is not guaranteed). Natalie and her ability to spread joy through art. And each other. 

I wish each and everyone of you rest, and inner peace as we enter into the holiday season. You are worthy, and valued. Each text message sent and comment made on photos and updates have been deeply cherished. We are grateful for you.